Yoga Roots
How Yoga helped change my life
—A chapter of stories from the Soul 🖤
I started practicing yoga in 2007, as I stumbled across a local yoga flyer in my home town, which was a rare find and something I felt very drawn to… So I was intrigued to give it it a go!
Yoga was something I only heard about in magazines and I remember seeing the photographs in the pages thinking it looked amazing! As a child I loved doing ballet and dance and other forms of art at home, it always felt like a soothing and brought a sense of peace —Yoga looked like something I’d love! so I was inspired to try it.
At this point it was still unknown to me how much my Yoga practice would influence and change my life— it opened my eyes to a different approach to living, which changed so much for me, I had a lot of held trauma and tention (which i didn’t understand back then or was even aware of I guess) but it showed itself through anxiety and a feeling of not being safe, which was a feeling I felt and held for a very long time and I never understood where that came from until I actually started to understand the body and how energy works! As well all the things that were in the situations and experiences that I had moved through that got me here! — It was rooted from childhood traumas, PTSD, from having EIP (an emotionally immature parent) from family separation, domestic violence and whitenessing the effects of my dad struggling with alcoholism—and the life experiences that came with multiple loss, to an undiagnosed health condition and unhappiness in later in life.
Years of anxiety led to what I never thought I’d ever experience— depression! this didn’t actually come until much later in adult life, but it all makes sense to me why the body would respond in this way.
Life got serious at a very young age and from that came a lot of struggle and isolation, coping with life’s twist and turns into later life with little to no support.
I didn’t have a rock!
Yoga would change that for me and it became a deep connection into something that I hadn’t had before ( a firm foundation) I started reading about the history of yoga, the system of yoga and the 8 limb path and I started my personal yoga practice!
I was amazed by the way it made my body feel…like no other physical exercise had done before. It helped ease my anxiety and I was hooked in no time and I loved every part of the practice …the whole body stretching, tapping, breathing, holding postures and the relaxation was bliss.
Above all, I was blessed to have found a very enthusiastic and supportive Yoga teacher, who became a wonderful friend —Alexandra and her style was Dahn yoga (Korean yoga ) It was very different from the traditional asana or vinyasa flow style that I now teach, a style founded by Ilchi Lee, with the background and practice most closely resembling non-violent martial arts, Qigong and energy work —A practice of body and brain wave vibration and meditation, which was where I started. This practice of Qigong Meditation was a big focus in our sessions and I loved it! So my route to yoga was first found and based around meditation ( this came first) with lots body vibration and tapping practices, which I still infuse into my practices today.
This opened the door into my discovery of all things yoga and my self practice grew deeper and I initially took a big interest in vinyasa flow style as I loved the more intuitive free flow movement methods and getting creative with each movement, later incorporating vinyasa interval training into my early practices for more power yoga and body strengthening practices.
During my training Alexandra taught me so much about my mind and my body than I ever thought possible. Alexandra was the one that encouraged me to start teaching, I’d never really ever had that before, that level of guidance and encouragement , it was just not something i experienced growing up. I felt grateful having someone guide me in this way. After a few years of self practice Alexandra pushed me into the direction of teaching, the thought of teaching yoga was nerve wracking to me! I didn’t think this was something Id ever have the confidence to do!
But in 2010 we held some shared classes together and I helped create pregnancy yoga practices and my way of teaching started to begin—It was Alexandra who encouraged me to step into teaching fully, which I did in 2012.
I felt ready!
Alexandra moved away back to Poland with her last piece of advice being “Go for it”…
I left my full time 9-5 job to go self employed into teaching yoga, after qualifying with yoga diplomas and with pre and post natal yoga, my classes and true purpose began…
I remember Alexandra giving me so much encouragement, telling me “ I believe you will have a room to teach yoga and you’ll fill it” and I did, I was blessed to always fill the classes.
Each time they got full and I’d be turning people away, so I’d find another place that was slightly bigger and the same would happen again, I’d fill the classes and then have to move into another venue that was bigger to share it with more people.
—This then led me to the opening of my yoga studio in 2013, after a good couple of years teaching and a small community of followers behind me and into a five year studio lease. A big refurbishment on an empty broken building— An open book with one thing in my heart— to share the healing practices of yoga with others.
To create classes and experiences I wish existed and make a difference for people’s emotional and physical bodies. To offer a support system, space to rest and self heal. The studio opened its doors and I was teaching 13 classes per week, I welcomed holistic therapeutic practices, reflexologists, Bowen therapy, massage therapists to share the space—From it a community grew with several of my own students going on to teach yoga themselves and offering classes. This was the vision I dreamed of, a place where a community could be held.
To create a freedom.
I continued to create a place for people to retreat, home from home to find a gateway to release stress, with various styles of yoga and mini retreats. I studied hard and poured everything I had into the studio, all my finances and energy.
There was so much in my heart, I wanted to share practices that I resonated with and knew could help people connect back to themselves and evolve into the best versions of themselves. The practice is that powerful. Transformative and life altering, but it’s not a mask of love and light that covers up the darkness— it’s more about feeling safe enough to meet the darkness and be held in it! helping you through it.
It’s a practice of healing even when healing feels overwhelming and ugly! When youve been stuck in the dark for a while and don’t know how to get out. It’s a practice that honestly can get you through!
I’d built a daily practice of my own and so it was always there! From that becomes something you start to do automatically, you don’t just practice when you need it the most but its something you build your life around… like forming any good habit, then when you hit the grit or something comes to knock you down it’s still there! This healthy habit, so it makes it easier to reach for on the days you don’t feel 100%.
A way of life that then helps to hold you!
So, yoga practice became much more than the physical ( asana) for me it was like a healing therapy from what I’d experienced in my life and eventually teaching it was a way of sharing something that I knew could help others—which I can only describe as the deepest pull to do!
The yoga techniques I practiced opened my mind, my intuition and deeper ways of thinking that felt like something had been lifted, like an expansion from a place that was inside of me all along but had been blurred.
“The nature of yoga is to shine the light of awareness into the darkest corners of the body.” – Jason Crandell
That’s the thing about Yoga, even without you knowing much about the practice, with a good teacher it works the whole body and mind for a complete body cleanse and workout and leads you into this discovery of finding your best self and helps you let go of the things that are getting in the way of you being able to do that.
It goes beyond the physical— it’s not what the postures look like, but how it feels.
Ive learnt in doing so that “This sensation” was something to trust in, it was always there, it is here for us and I rememberd to trust it.
This practice of sensation is something we can use within every part of our lives, to live with this deep connection in everything because by doing so you can choose the People and Places that are right for you.
You feel it.
You trust it.
This is Pratyahara” The 5th element, within this limb it’s a holding into full self-realisation, your expanded self-awareness and inner stability is connected back, there is such a deeper presence—This practice is here to help us master both the body and the mind, it’s a way to get back what is so often taken from us from the conditioning and the conforming we all absorb.
As my practice grew, so did my physical and mental strength. I started to feel a stronger sense of intuition and I started to listen to it, trust it and follow it….As I started to follow my intuition my life started to change and for the better.
Although this didn’t come without huge heartbreak and struggle. It opened my eyes to so much more about life— Satya ( meaning truth) within the first limb the Yama, it opened my eyes about people in my life and how I really wanted to live! I was more able to understand the toxicity that surrounded me and some of the toxic people I needed to break away from!
It opened up the intuition that was there all along but learnt to hold the pain and push it down, from a scaring of abandonment, neglect, separation, being gaslighted and having had my experiences and reality denied and lied to— This was a deep suppression like being numbed and one that only lead me to accept and live in unhealthy relationships and situations as an adult.
I often felt like I had no where to turn or nowhere to go when times were tough. Difficult situations were faced alone when I was young and there’s something within that solidarity that brings immense independence. You get use to going it alone. So it became a way of dealing with things, I’d go a bit off grid in times of any struggle, which I can only describe it like I’d be pulled back into survival mode again and until the fog cleared there was no way out but in! I don’t think some people get this unless they themselves have faced hardships, being alone in struggle changes something inside of you. I learnt that this was the only way of doing things.
Many people live this—I see other people just surviving not thriving and I really want to help change that.
I want us to live our best lives. Create connection and live for my family I now have— because there is so much power and purpose in family, I truly believe if you get that right, make all the efforts and create a support system despite any imperfections within the unit you have so much strength because you have the strong roots to hold you all up and give you that stability. Family is everything, it should be everything and it’s in who ever you choose to call family.
With my practice, i experienced a feeling of stability, peace and an understanding of why the roots of where I had grown were not strong, supportive or present. It was like the more I cleared the more I understood and became aware of the impact my experiences had on my body and my life. For a long time I was numb to it, I thought it was normal and I hadn’t questioned it. So this realisation came with intense feelings of grief and sadness —so be ready for that!
Grief for people I choose to let go because it wasn’t healthy to stay, grief for the things I missed out on and never got to do as a child or in my teenage years, family separation and taking on responsibilities at such a young age, being a parent to my parents, being left alone a lot of the time as a teenager and then living on my own at the age of 16 to financial struggles that stemmed from having no head start in life. It was like I didn’t feel the enormity of it at the time, but that’s what survival mode does, it keeps you numb. From this conditioning I continued to choose relationships that were unsupportive, painful, emotionally immature people I had to hold, support and “fix”. I spent years being the listener for others pain but looking back there was no space for all the things I had gone through, nobody asked if I was ok! I never spoke much of any of it, honestly I must have just pushed it all down because I was the one holding everyone else up.
—Big realisations came. Like Saucha ( an internal cleanse) knowing your past and going back to the roots that got you here to wash through it!
Memories flashed through me, through every cell, pain was dragged up! There was so much! And even the small things that actually really weren’t small— like a remembering! Lost time, there was no leaving home or anything to mark special significant life events (my graduations, passing exams, birthday milestones) Nothing was celebrated. There was no holding.
I was really still a child when I lived independently, there was no guidence, for a time I didn’t live with either of my parents at all at the age of 13— It was from this moment life as I knew it changed forever and it would be the start of several twists and turns of struggle and hardships. Family was scattered. The roots I did have were completely severed.
No one checked in.
The sets backs unfolded, one being financial struggle, it was hard and one that took a long time to recover and break free from! As I got a bit older most things went on credit cards in order to get essential home items, things I needed like driving lessons, I bought my first car ( with a loan) and worked to just pay it all off, although I was constantly just trying to catch up. Working from a very young age to pay bills, instead of being able to save… I remember feeling embarrassed about my situation because things were not like this for my friends and I didn’t really talk about it much at all, they just thought it was cool I had my own place! I really did just get on with it ( this was my normal) but I didn’t realise until much later in life how much I’d been living in survival mode and how much of that wasn’t actually normal.
There was no interest in any “firsts” and no going back to a family home if needed.
One of my few first jobs was cleaning holiday homes and caravans when I was 14, I always had jobs, and I enjoyed working. Id buy clothes or a school bag I needed with it and never wasted it (which were all great lessons) and prepared me in a way for the early independence I would have. I was in full time college and living alone, holding down a full time job…instead of leaving to go home at the end of the day, I stayed on to clean the college into the late evening to earn money needed. This early independence often came with the longer route to get towards the things I wanted, needed or wanted to create, this being—A Home, this was something very important to me, I’ve always been very much the earthy home maker type of person, I still am! Home is everything to me, So often when I was younger if I had an extra bit of money to spend and there was a choice of going out drinking with my friends or buying something nice for the house—I’d often choose the home decor! Certain friends didn’t get this, but apart from the home making and wanting a nice home, which took a long time to build it stemmed from a subconscious need to have security.
I also got to a point during this time in my early 20’s where I didn’t want to waste money on alcohol, I had a negative relationship with this due to my dads alcoholism and I ended up hating it. Alcohol destroyed so much of our lives. I didn’t want it in my life. I never needed it to be the bubbly life of the party, it wasn’t needed for confidence and I always felt so awful with the hangovers, it was no longer worth my energy. It’s toxic to me. I became pretty much a soft drink gal! And I have currently not drank any alcohol for over 5 years now.
If you think this makes me boring, let me tell you… I’m totally not 😜 and if others want to drink I have no problem with it, I just don’t resonate with it personally.
Experiencing the set backs, having no guidance, or emotional support later lead to a place where I stayed in unhealthy relationships for too long, It wasn’t until it all started to surface that I held feelings of “I didn’t matter”— I still get that trigger sometimes, I’m fully aware my healing is by any means complete but I started to wake with my yoga practice my intuition came back to me and with it my strength. I followed my instincts fully and let my intuition guide me.
I left the unhealthy relationships.
Im still practicing this “leave behind what no longer serves you”, to set boundaries and put them in place— but when it comes down to it being for family it’s not easy and can still bring challenges!
Sadly often the people we are tethered to or who we think of as family can turn out to be the ones who have been hurting you all this time… and you can loose alot of yourself from that. But you can untether the knots and cut these cords, accept and understand that if connection, love and support is mainly only coming one way it’s not always worth holding on. I started to learn how to set boundaries. From toxic, narcissistic people I knew I had to break away.
Its hard to let go though, even if your intuition is strong in something you may have the heart conflict you! It can feel like a strong achey pull going in the opposite direction…So it can feel very confusing to know which feeling is the right one! Do I listen to my heart or my head? both can be true but it depends on the situation.
This is where you have to truly listen. Go all in and step away from the noise.
My experience of unhealthy love left it’s confusion and scars—where I found myself putting so much into others with little given back, it certainly didn’t always give me a good sense of expectation of what relationships should be and feel like! The red flags didnt flag!
I let myself be treated poorly.
I forgot about myself.
I forgot about that little girl who was actually so wise beyond her years, wanting to protect everyone else, to love deeply —I forgot myself, and because of all the accumulated dust and muck I lost touch with that inner trust. With self love.
It can be a very confusing experience, when feelings and Intuition are so very different, intuition is not even a feeling-it’s not emotive, it holds no emotion, no pain, it is just a strong sense, that inner nudge, a guide (as I have experienced it to be) that directs you to do something or change something! But when you’ve had it numbed or been conditioned to ignore this thing inside it’s easy to bypass it!
Emotion is different, this feeling is in our hearts, because our hearts hold the thoughts of people, memories, relationships, and also emotional pain…which can sometimes really stop us from following our intuition. You can sometimes feel conflicted between the two, because they can be going in different directions, but you’ll also know in your heart if something or someone isn’t right for you.
How?
Ask yourself this…how does your heart truly feel?
How does your heart feel with this person most of the time? Or in this place? You can ask yourself this if your struggling to understand how you feel and what to do or where to go! I did and I got my answer.
My heart felt hurt 💔
My heart was already broken, it broke many times, again and again. Giving others chance after chance. from this place I had to really think about where my life was going, what love was I really receiving and letting in? Was love really suppose to hurt like this?
For a heart to break and mend again you have to give it love.
Go where love is.
That is literally what I heard— This was the voice of my intuition and I got my answer!
Yoga gave this back to me and then I found it in new relationships and loving people that came into my life.
If your wondering who are your people? These will be the ones you who make your heart feel seen and your nervous system feel safe! The people who show you love are those who hold space for you. Listen to you. See you.
The gossips or the criticisers who speak negative of others to you are most likely also speaking this way about you behind your back too— You’ll start to see through it all, and I did! All the patterns, all the betrayals and all the lack of awareness in some that I now feel I have some understanding; like the qoute goes— “you can only meet others as deeply as you meet yourself”. This I have seen and experienced deeply and still do…but I have learnt to accept this and recognise it, those that go about life and live blindly. It’s sad to see it! lack of self-awareness is like a poison—Reflection and review is the antidote.
We only grow if we are open to the truth.
If you sense this. Trust it!
Maybe some would think I am “too deep” but in all honesty I would rather feel everything than not at all—Shutting down emotionally is a place where no life or real love can exist in its full capacity.
My practice enabled me to really question it all and I opened my heart to a new path and believed in this spiritual channel, for me it felt like a connection to the power of the universe, or something that I could tap into and reach out to, inside of me at the same.
I learned that in order to be open to a light and live your true life path, you have to tune into your body and trust your body! You have to see the darkness —and from time to time you have to let go of stagnant energy that builds up in life, we all have it! Sometimes though we can hold it for a long time. Som people can hold it for a lifetime.
If your not releasing and letting it go it creates a blockage to freedom and to love.
Your intuition is there to guide you and lead you to this life that is meant for you. A life that you can create, a life of love because it comes from the heart and that place of knowing. Feeling.
This is where your meant to be.
Use your intuition, practice tuning in by creating moments of stillness—it’s a sense that is strong, yet for one reason or another many of us can often ignore it ( especially if we are too busy all of the time) and then we disconnect, we don’t follow it without taking much notice on what the impact of this could be—Unblocking the body and mind is important so as we clear the path and receive the clarity we need. These blockages come from the physical body, the emotional body and the energetic body and even from chemical stress, it’s all accumulation! —not just from deep trauma! It’s ajso from the poor body postures, sitting for long periods of time, not releasing all that stagnant energy, physical stress, from other people’s negativity, toxic lifestyles, toxic food and substances, it’s in all the conditioning life presses into us. It’s all in there!
Overload.
When we disconnect from nature and stillness, when we are pressing through life at a hundred miles per hour with no pause it’s Too much! We disconnect to ourselves! There is such a thing as too much distraction and avoidance! If you don’t feel you are not present to whiteness real time.
Yoga helped me change my life because it opened up my mind again— To see what was surrounding me, to deeper levels of intuition and pause, I didn’t know where this deep listening would lead me, it was the complete unknown, but I felt drawn to listen to it!
It helped me break away from painful relationships, which although can be incredibly hard when experiencing all the above emotional dilemmas, the pain and grief that can rip open your heart and take time to heal from… But deep down I knew I needed to step away from the people that treated me poorly and boundry up with some that are still present in my life.
I had so much love to give, but it wasn’t cherished and was it was taken for granted. So I walked away and tried hard to pour that back into myself.
Intuition pulled me away from toxic people, the control, the abuse. This I allowed for too long, for other people to take thier emotional baggage, anger and crap out on me! It was a big lesson— I cared so much for other people, trying to understand them, to help them heal, but they weren’t doing anything to help themselves and I got lost in it and in thier pain. That wasn’t even mine to hold. So, I realised this was not taking care of myself.
It was my yoga practice and experiences that changed my mindset, it taught me that no matter how hard you try to change things for other people, no matter how much you think you love them that will be enough, your love! But it’s not. It’s not because they have to love and help themselves! If you forget yourself in the process of trying to help them your both lost!
People can heal and change for the better — Yes!!!
…but it has to start from within! You can’t allow other peoples negative behaviour to contiue hurting you, and it will continue! It will strip away the real you if you let it! and I became a shell of myself because of this damage, it did do something to my physical health too!
Trauma is so complex, from early life trauma that can make you more susceptible to illness in adulthood and as I started connecting the dots between significant life events and times of illness it became apparent that there are no coincidences, it can be devastating too but gave understanding, closure and healing at the same time. This was something I’d later experience in 2020 and is another story chapter for another time, but if you haven’t ever heard of trauma anniversaries this is something you should research! For me the knowing of this made so much sense and allowed me to understand my body and it’s language in a way I needed to know in order to begin healing in the right way that my body would respond to.
Yoga was a doorway! I chose to walk away and start a new life. And even though it was hard, even though it was so painful I kept going because deep down I knew nothing would ever change. I wasn’t looking for perfection, I know that does not exist but I do believe people can heal if they are open to it!
You are your greatest medicine 💚
You have to be ready, accountable, meet your imperfections, see the shadows and be willing to heal for better change! And with that I do believe you are able to make a positive difference in this world.
Nothing or no one is ever perfect but no one has the right to keep hurting you. No one has the right to control you and bring you down because they are taking thier pain out on you.
Yoga helped me to stay strong through loss, heartache, pain and change. Yoga helped me find so much more mental strength.
Through crazy times!
So, I continued to study and practice more and more YOGA. I was living a passion for something incredible and actually working to help other people who were willing to help themselves, building a business and a healing yoga studio to share the practice.
I found my purpose.
It was scary at first, a risk some said —maybe but I took it and let that fire in my belly that I felt ignited! I let my passion for yoga lead the way. I enjoyed the fresh start, of living on my own, took the time to start healing and eventually met new and better people and I now have my own family.
It took time to adjust to a new life, as crazy as it sounds but being around emotionally healthy people felt quite unfamiliar to me, so this was confusing, but it reminded me of that peacful energy I had in my brother who was a stability, safety and comfort growing up. One of the saddest parts of the family separation was loosing time with him, he is such a pure soul.
—It was another remembering and I trusted that energy again—and with that the body feels safe to release and so everything was just pouring out of me!
All the pain! All the loss.
It felt like I cried an ocean, into a river then into a stream !! I felt things slowly settle. It came in waves, some days it would pour again and now the tears are slowing. The truth is it takes years to heal from stress and burn out! grief is also a forever metamorphosis of sensation, encapsulated in various forms of the love and the losses you’ve held.
but life goes on!
With kind and patient people around me it unfolded as it should… And I took the biggest and most life changing journey in being a mumma — A true blessing💙 A deep purpose and as I describe it as; I have this invisible umbilical cord attached from my body to my babies body, no matter how much they grow— it just stretches! It never breaks.
I’ll always be there for everything.
Life isn’t always easy but that is how we grow and evolve, to try always to be better and do better with each day. To understand ourselves and others better and as much as possible I do look at the why people are as they are and do keep working on understanding!
I continued and still continue to work through trauma release and stress, the years it takes to heal from burn out and understanding my triggers and doing the work to release and let go of old vibrations is the inner work.
I sometime wonder, will it take a lifetime to heal? Do we ever fully recover from anything fully? I think healing is circular— We break and mend and break and mend, in different ways, there’s always going to be something to work on, something that has left its mark and then things that feel like full recovery—that’s life. There are all the in betweens! These are the road maps, Some routes are more rough and some are smoothe! And from that we “Root” into our own lives, but remember roots need to be watered, and tended to— And if they are uprooted they can also always be re-planted!
As life throws itself at you, when you feel like you’ve nearly crossed a bridge another one can come towards you. It all brings a new evolved version of YOU. With that we land on the paths that carry us in the present moment. With what we have learned and what we have now.
With that is the Dhyana ( the 7th limb) the unbroken flow of consciousness toward a point of focus, or toward the point you are at right in this moment—The present and with that gratitude. Even if it is for the simplicity of life. It’s life! And we only have one, of which I hope this is a reminder for you. This one body we have in our lifetime! We have to love it and others more!
Finally I’m entering a phase where I just want to be around peace ( don’t we all) but with kind people who keep it real and love to grow, who genuinely cheer you on! I’m in my mid 40’s now and I’m still emerging and will still hope to be for many more years! Changing and healing as they unfold, but as I keep clearing I keep coming back to myself. I keep loving.
When I experienced a big burn out after a time of caring for my sick father, his alcohol addiction was at peak and it hit during the busiest time in my life, in 2014 he declined even more and I was looking after him, it got so bad…it got so raw. With this constant vibration of panic, seeing him in such an awful way, his height of alcoholism and addiction spiralled out of control, many times I thought I’d walk into his apartment and find him dead. I’d say to myself, prepare yourself he might be dead today! But nothing could prepare me—Survival mode returned and I held it all whilst working flat out, building a yoga business, running my yoga studio and caring for my first born baby on very little sleep.
My body held it for as long as it could, It was an extremely busy and demanding time. That’s what the body does on adrenaline, it keeps you going. But what happens to the adrenal glands is they become exhausted and burn out—when you can’t hold any more the body holds it for you and then when it’s safe to release again ( normally after the period where you can stop holding on ) it falls apart. The body breaks!
And that’s what happened. Fast forward to 2016, I birthed my second boy and 3 weeks later my dad died. I kept holding all that pain, his pain too because I knew and understood that underneath the alcoholism was loss, regrets and heartache that he suffered— I would not let this ruin again my second experience of a supposedly blissful postpartum. So I held it. I was still in a shock and I didn’t properly cry or grieve him until 2 years later. There was a lot to process.
All the holding was a storage and in early 2020, My body broke! And with it another transformation journey unfolded. It was a huge challenge but one where it connected all the dots, I had an illness that literally struck me to the floor, during a time when the world had shut down and once again I had no support! Doctors and the medical system had no answers, I could sense my urgency for help “did not matter”.
I took a massive look at how I got here! Being so poorly then on for over a year and half was the worst physical struggle I had experienced, because the duration of it felt like I was stuck in a dark hole with no end, but with it came a huge learning curve. It brought back immense pain and it wasn’t about living in the past but as things came up again I knew there were still things I needed to heal from. Things were coming up because they were ready to go! You can’t move into healing until you meet the pain and this was like a purge! My body’s way of healing itself, ridding itself of the stress. All the traumas connected to this! Even to dates, it was pretty eye opening to say the least!
With everything I experienced from it, learning accepting and being present. For me, yoga was medicine in a real stressful time and I went back to my yoga roots, the meditation and the body vibration practices I first found and practiced.
To shake it off. It’s a powerful modality. One that works well for me. I would say finding your way into healing is personal, there will be some things that work for you and some things not so!
So you keep trying, practice, be open to anything.
Find your medicine and nourish your roots.
Thats what I love about yoga, it’s not just the asana ( physical posture) it the 8 limb path. There’s no much that unlocks the pain and can help you live again.
Now my yoga work enables me to help others, share the amazing benifits and give out to others what yoga has given to me.
Yoga can help you cope better with the many untold life situations that are thrown at us… as much as I believe we can be in control of our lives, of course there are circumstances, situations and things that happen that are not always in our control.
Often when these “things” do happen or cross our life path we get that nudge or that inner voice of intuition calling you and it will be even stronger when you practice yoga, because you are practicing the art of letting go and learning how to be present.
To sit with it.
To let go of it.
All the build up of stress and crap that we carry or endure, physically, emotionally and mentally.
Why are we holding it when we can soften!
We can learn to let go and that’s what yoga teaches us. Sit with it and then let it go.
Everything is energy and that energy needs to move at all times! Your emotions are energy, your pain is energy, your thoughts are energy.
Learning how to sit with it all and then move with it all is the most healing thing you can do for yourself. The most freeing thing you can do.
Looking back I know the pain and struggles I’ve experienced have bought me to where I am today. Life is a constant flow of holding on and letting go—working as hard as possible to make it a good life and not being afraid to take a chance if it feels right! In heart and in mind.
I also believe the heartache, pain and struggles do bring greater compassion and understanding.
Things don’t always happen for a reason ( I’m not a believer of that) shit things can happen that shouldn’t happen and saying otherwise can be a toxic positivity, it’s bypassing that isn’t helpful to hear or believe sometimes ! —But darkness has a way of making you see and feel the light moments much more brightly. Maybe not today but one day, the light it does return and when it does, I hope you feel it’s brightness radiate through every cell of your body.
life shows you where the magic is — in simple ways! Just notice.
Life is also about choices and your choice becomes your reality—What you can choose or how you choose to deal with or accept, life’s situations shape you. How we choose to see things, we can stay in the dark or choose to live closer to the light even if life is still hard… choosing a different perspective can create a different path and a different view when you start to live with a more open mind.
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You’ll also get more answers to your pain when you understand where it’s come from, those roots that perhaps have been damaged are because someone else’s roots were also damaged!
So in all this I also know that much of how you can be treated unfairly by others is nothing to do with you! Remember it can come from the level of awareness they have, it can be in the pain they carry and a reflection of the relationship they have with themselves.
Shit experiences can shape you for the better, just don’t let them keep holding you back! Change your perspective.
Wether it’s your intuition you allow to help you or not, you do have it and that has the power to help you create the life you want.
Yoga is now my way of life and the techniques I practice have made me a stronger person and have enabled me to feel a stronger sense of safety and understanding that there is a root of all things, situations, experiences and people and to better understand it all. It’s a practice that brings you into body and when you meet yourself you can meet others with that deeper meaning.
I also believe asana is a way to condition Tapas (discipline) through our bodies and the sequences and flow of a yoga class provides the frame to condition that inner strength, determination and will power. What we learn and practice on the mat can be a mirror of how we can live our days off the mat!
As we end each practice with palms together for prayer mudra this honours gratitude— I’ve poured my heart, soul, and knowledge into creating my yoga classes, making sure every class and offering is something that can genuinely help you feel better and live better.
Thank you for being part of this community and for sharing this beautiful journey of health, self care and wellness. I appreciate you!
I feel so grateful every day for all that I have. I am blessed to be a mum and create something beautiful for my children and we finally have a home that is a foundation of safety and love.
It may have taken a while for me to get here, but be with the people who love you back! And know by moving on from the toxic people in your life you only make more space for new and better people to enter. I just wanted to share with you that no matter how hard life gets sometimes, you can still turn it all around or try to make the best out of a bad situation—believe in the strength and resilience you will receive in challenging times; difficult experiences, struggles, they make you grow and sometimes when you’re in a dark place, you think you’ve been buried, but you’ve actually been planted! You will root again,
Let your heart break open from time to time but never hold it back!
Love and appreciation
Tina
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